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Posted pharrelle on 19 June 2016 - 03:48 PM

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all my friends are at the beach surfing and having fun; I can't come because I'm working even on sundays ...

#4586406 Overwatch

Posted Thaya on 03 June 2016 - 02:15 AM

top meme

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Posted Reliuna on 15 May 2016 - 11:02 PM

View PostVentux, on 15 May 2016 - 10:59 PM, said:

choke me daddy

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Posted Ventux on 15 May 2016 - 10:59 PM

View PostBreadstick, on 13 May 2016 - 12:37 AM, said:

trimmed the beard rip

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choke me daddy

#4581537 Do you have male camaraderie in your life, junkie?

Posted Thaya on 10 May 2016 - 01:07 AM


one of the key things for me was judging my past self in the same way i'd judge another person, i.e. by their actions only (not words or thoughts or whatever)

i realized that at every given point in time, i was just doing what i wanted to do. all the games, drugs, "wasted" time, "missed" opportunities, etc., it applies to all of it. i played wow instead of properly studying in uni because i wanted to play wow and didn't want to study, i didn't work because i didn't want to, i didn't go to the gym because i didn't want to, i didn't socialize much irl because i didn't want to, and i spent most of my time playing games, coding/building random shit, and shitposting because that's what i really wanted to do (and still do).

viewing it like this lead me into understanding myself a lot better than ever before. like, regardless of my thoughts during that entire timeframe (which were mostly negative, i.e. thinking im wasting my life / missed the boat / etc), the simple truth is, that's what i wanted, and that's what i was doing. if my wishes were actually any different, i'd have probably acted differently too, as all the necessary tools and opportunities were available to me.

thus, there just can't be any regrets. it'd just be weird to regret doing what you want to do. no life was wasted and no ship was missed, it was all just choices being made, and as i said before, there's no "good choices" or "bad choices", it's all the same, it's just "your choices". sure, there are certain things or accomplishments/results/statuses that i wish i had, but don't, but that's not a regret really. that's just wishing you had shit that you don't have. and it's not even important shit given this "proper" context of what i am/what i want to be, so all these sadboy tears were for nothing really

this was actually the very first 'change', everything else stems from this. this is about, like, accepting yourself, admitting that whatever situation or state you're in, you're in it willingly, thus taking full responsibility for it, and consequently, gaining full control of it too.

one thing i remember really well is directly after this i just thought like, "well, ok, i love internet and games, i definitely need to fix my financial part of life tho" and instantly i started finding PLENTY of ways to monetize my activity. i've been completely oblivious to this shit before, mind you, so it was all "holy shit!!! this is so ez". i just didn't even really look, because i thought gaming and shitposting are just, like, some of the ways i waste my life with, and one day i'd stop and suddenly become a different person entirely. its like, my mind was so clouded with doubts that i didn't even see really basic things lying in front of me.

and all i did was change how i perceive things. everything (literally) is fun/exciting for me right now, and everything is fucking simple as well. i can motivate myself to "want" just about anything. chores? i want to be clean and live in a clean place. work? i want to build my project cuz its dope and cuz i want/need money. gym? cuz i want to be in good shape/health.

as for quotes, one that's become really close to me is "We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong. The amount of effort is the same"

it's Castaneda, who sure wrote a lot of whacky shit, but 'Journey to Ixtlan' is imho a real gem. i generally wouldn't recommend to read Castaneda, but Ixtlan i absolutely would recommend. (it's part of a series but it's written in a way that you can read just that one, don't need the context.)

there's also this Buddhist saying:

"Before I had studied Zen for thirty years, I saw mountains as mountains, and waters as waters. When I arrived at a more intimate knowledge, I came to the point where I saw that mountains are not mountains, and waters are not waters. But now that I have got its very substance I am at rest. For it's just that I see mountains once again as mountains, and waters once again as waters."

#4580625 Do you have male camaraderie in your life, junkie?

Posted Ayrasaurus on 05 May 2016 - 07:41 AM

#4579791 Decided that my favorite emotion is something like calm

Posted Thaya on 30 April 2016 - 03:26 AM

jesus tom

that is blissful

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Posted pharrelle on 13 April 2016 - 10:54 PM

View PostZaephyr, on 13 April 2016 - 05:00 PM, said:

hahahaha amazing

but nah i got bullied in school myself, rip.

Don't worry these girls don't know what they're missing out.

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#4572429 Why don't you have a Girlfriend Junkie?

Posted Twaenkz on 31 March 2016 - 12:48 PM

Playing a sad boy acctually worked? Huzzzaaa

#4572450 Why don't you have a Girlfriend Junkie?

Posted pharrelle on 31 March 2016 - 04:18 PM

View PostBreadstick, on 31 March 2016 - 10:33 AM, said:

i got her number lol

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damn dude. that was actually quite quickwitted. +1

#4572426 Why don't you have a Girlfriend Junkie?

Posted Ventux on 31 March 2016 - 12:09 PM


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Posted Ventux on 27 March 2016 - 11:00 PM

View PostBreadstick, on 25 March 2016 - 10:34 AM, said:

idk man, i was pretty fucking stupid looking before and not to sound like a douchebag but i get a pretty decent amount of compliments now after caring about my hair/clothes for a couple years. there's definitely only so much you can do, but you can take yourself a long way just from things that you have control over



before wow was a good game and after wow became a shit game

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Posted Dunc on 27 March 2016 - 05:59 PM

That is a very majestic beard to be fair

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Posted pharrelle on 21 March 2016 - 07:49 PM

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Posting for postings sake. Since my cellphone got stolen webcam has to do.
All my niggas be throwing mad shade at the beard but I'm still kinda feeling it atm.

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Posted Ayrasaurus on 09 February 2016 - 11:44 PM

Thinking of you AJ

I'll return one day

Until then sit tight lads

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