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#4579533 Decided that my favorite emotion is something like calm

Posted Breadstick on Yesterday, 09:15 PM

View PostThaya, on 28 April 2016 - 04:05 PM, said:

too bad only admins will understand that one

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#4579380 Decided that my favorite emotion is something like calm

Posted Breadstick on Yesterday, 10:39 AM

it's kind of stupid but i have a few rack mounted switches and routers in another room and when i feel anxiety i like to go in there, close the door and watch their link lights flashing while listening to the fans spin

it's my stress reliever idk why


#4575648 [IRL] Official OT IRL Picture's

Posted pharrelle on 13 April 2016 - 10:54 PM

View PostZaephyr, on 13 April 2016 - 05:00 PM, said:

hahahaha amazing

but nah i got bullied in school myself, rip.

Don't worry these girls don't know what they're missing out.

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#4577313 Throw me some wisdom u druggies of OT

Posted YVNG_CARL_YVNG on 20 April 2016 - 09:23 AM

if you're prone to mental illness, don't do it.

if you feel like you're in a slump, like you're in an episode of depression, don't do it.

like most drugs the experience depends heavily on your mood on that particular day, so if you're feeling unsafe, if you're getting cold feet, don't do it. you have to be comfortable with it.

i had one experience where i felt kinda bad (had an argument w/ gf) and then took shrooms the same day. it didn't turn out to be a bad trip or anything, it was just weird. but i'm pissed i wasted like 30 bucks.

if you do feel comfortable taking shrooms then do it. go for a dose of like 1,5g if you just want a high, more than 2g if you want to trip. honestly, if you are as buff as you say (i doubt it) go for atleast 2g, probably more like 2.5g or 3g.

even when i was skeltal mode, even the first time i took shrooms i took the highest dose out of our group and i was completely o.k.

my experience wasn't exactly like thaya described it, but similiar. the trip first starts with you starting to feel like something's growing inside you, like something is glowing inside you. then all your extremities get this weird tingling feel. then your vision starts to alter little by little. it's funny as fuck sometimes, you look down and suddenly you feel like a 8ft giant. you look at your arms and they're longer than an orang utang's. after the hallucinations were off a bit comes my favorite phase. the introspection for me is the greatest thing about shrooms.

on 1st of may me and some friends stayed at my grandmas garden. she has a very tiny wooden cabin. no electric light n shit. we lit everything with candles. it was raining like hell outside, like the deluge. so this little room ended up being our entire cosmos. i took control of the music and just completely melted away. it was, as thaya said, a very spiritual experience. all of my friends had a really big comedown and felt like shit. i was the complete opposite. even long after the trip had worn down i felt like i was fucking reborn. i could feel every muscle in my body twitching, i felt more optimistic than i had ever been, more positive. i felt completely on top of myself physically and mentally. i wasn't in this hazy mood you get into after smoking too much, i felt like my thoughts were razor sharp.

all in all i really think you should be doing it if you don't feel intimidated. it really ain't even that big of a deal. people make it out to be, but it's not. sure it can alter your brain chemistry forever.. me personally i don't feel like anything has changed significantly at all. i've had more lifechanging experiences smoking the silent killer called synthetic thc. by the way, don't ever do that. that shit can fuck you up real bad.


#4576677 Watching THIS gem yet again

Posted YVNG_CARL_YVNG on 17 April 2016 - 08:16 PM

you've got some excellent fucking taste man. this is my dad's favourite movie. i personally really love stalker and solaris (not the most exciting choices, i couldn't care less), but i'm a sucker for (good) sci fi.

tarkovsky is definitely one of the greatest though. a lot of filmmakers, even legends like fellini, godard et al have some movies in their filmography that strike me as just good or even mediocre, but every single of big t's seven movies is absolute perfection.

"Tarkovsky for me is the greatest (director), the one who invented a new language, true to the nature of film, as it captures life as a reflection, life as a dream" - ingmar the mountain man


#4575909 Why don't you have a Girlfriend Junkie?

Posted Zaephyr on 14 April 2016 - 09:26 PM

try some cheeky dancing m8


#4575687 Why don't you have a Girlfriend Junkie?

Posted pharrelle on 14 April 2016 - 05:53 AM

I just now did realize you guys were talking about me.




I'm not unhappy. I enjoy having a meaningful bond with a girl I really like.

I just don't feel ready for settling down yet. So it wouldnt fair to a girl that actually wants to find a guy to settle with.



It is okay for a guy in his early twenties to want to settle down.

It is okay for a guy in his early twenties not to want to settle down yet.



I'm choosing the ladder for now because my life is pretty adventurous and its possible that I'm going to move to a city 10 Hours from where I currently live because it's beneficial for my job. This actually happened 3 times in the last 12 Months.

Everytime I was in a relationship with a girl, and everytime I had to end it.
But I had already prepared them, that this is a very realistic possibility. And they were okay with that.

I'm not a player. I'm more honest than most guys. I tell girls what I want and what they can expect from me from day 1.
If what we want are the same things then we can party if not then thats okay too.

I don't force anyone to do or to commit to anything they don't feel comfortable with.

Please don't get confused here.

When I'm talking about these girls I just wanna hook up with and loose interest after a short while then they're aware neither one of us is looking for love or marriage.




I work in tourism and meet dozens of new people everyday.

Many girls in their late teens/early twenties who come down here want to combine their stay with an adventure. This is not a part of my job.

//Skinny dipping in the pitch black caribbean sea under star-spattered sky with palmtree silhouettes on the beach in far distance.

//Getting Salsa dance lessons by a latin guy in a backroom. While he holds your hips and explains you in both english and spanish how to move to the rhythm.

//Catching the first waves at 6am while watching the sunrise on the surfboards a few hundret meters of a beach only few know about. After that hop onto the motorcycle to a cheap motel and eat typical south american food with bachata in the background while smoking cheap and good weed pure.


I'm not a Gigolo. I don't get paid to sleep with women. I'm not in search for Money or a Visa.



I work 10 - 12 hours a day. Sleep about 6 hours a day.

If I'm hanging with one of these girls after work then I'm taking her if anything just with me to do what I would've done that day anyway.


This doesn't happen every day - Not even every week.
The first kiss usually doesn't even come from me. We don't always end up having sex.

Sometimes they text me later when they're back home how much they enjoyed our time together and how thankful they are for the memories they made.

Sometimes I don't hear from them ever again.







Sometimes I think back of the time as a neet watching 200 anime series in less than a year.
Queuing 3v3 Arena everyday and fucking around with the squad in skype.

That was a good time I don't regret. While I occasionally got laid back then it was more like a special occasion possibility.





I like sex and I don't want to miss it.

I'm at a pretty happy place these days overall.


#4575735 Why don't you have a Girlfriend Junkie?

Posted Ventux on 14 April 2016 - 12:39 PM

3 am summer night sitting on a roof smoking a blunt with thaya


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#4575690 The "Funny Picture" thread

Posted pharrelle on 14 April 2016 - 06:14 AM

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#4574379 Why don't you have a Girlfriend Junkie?

Posted Lloix on 08 April 2016 - 04:00 AM

Taking notes




#4574904 Why don't you have a Girlfriend Junkie?

Posted YVNG_CARL_YVNG on 10 April 2016 - 12:01 PM

all this motivational talk is pretty fuckin masturbatory. buncha grown men assuring each other they wont die irrelevant.


#4574418 Why don't you have a Girlfriend Junkie?

Posted FTRouslan on 08 April 2016 - 05:23 AM

View PostBuglamp, on 08 April 2016 - 02:27 AM, said:


Also, I've got that "I missed the boat" kind of hopelessness where I feel if were going to do something "significant" with my life, I should've already gotten started by now. I find myself thinking of times where opportunities were basically thrown at me and I dodged them so I also have a bit of shame and guilt over that - especially when it comes to teachers who put in extra effort.


It's not too late. Far from it. Don't feel bad for your past mistakes. Forgive yourself. Move on. Get moving.

It might be too late for you to become the youngest shitposter alive, but you certainly can reach for some goals like "yoga master" or "William Faulkner critic". Maybe one day you'll look back at this period as an important incubation for later successes. But you have to get moving. Opportunities build off of each other in an unpredictable way. You can't calculate your chances of long-term success from a certain path. You can only increase your odds.


#4574349 Why don't you have a Girlfriend Junkie?

Posted FTRouslan on 08 April 2016 - 01:09 AM

View PostBuglamp, on 06 April 2016 - 06:44 PM, said:

I have a long list of books

screw your long list of books. soon you'll be identifying yourself with the selection of books that you've picked to read. that's no good. you'll never read them at that rate.

let's take some small steps first. pick one book. a book that you want to read before you die. a book that you know, with some effort, that you can finish. a book that you'd be proud to tell other people that you've read. a book that you know will change your perspective a bit.

maybe you can get a calendar, set yourself a goal like "read 10-50 pages a day", and then track each day that you read by marking an X. see how many Xs you can mark off. Once you get the ball rolling, the positive reinforcement makes it hard to stop if you make it a serious commitment.

View PostBuglamp, on 06 April 2016 - 06:44 PM, said:

I've done the journal thing when I was in therapy, not sure how much it helped, at that time I think I lied to myself and/or was just less clear about what the hell my deal was.

What has been your current approach to journaling? Just writing down random thoughts? I use journaling to plan my day, plan the next day, keep track of goals, and to keep a consistent narrative.

My general goal of journaling is to be so engrossed into it that I can always say: this is what I have recently accomplished, this is what I plan on doing today, I will be working toward this goal in the future, and this is the big picture that motivates me.

Aimless/formless/intriguing thoughts are of secondary value. You can still incorporate that into your journaling, but if your main problem is keeping your identity "organized", then promoting more entropy is only going to make your problem worse.

It's hard to lose your identity when you're aware of the practical and sentimental reasons that define you as a person. It's hard to lose your identity when you're intimate with all of the small and large details that make you unique from me.

View PostBuglamp, on 06 April 2016 - 06:44 PM, said:

I actually offer myself a reasonable amount, the problem is I don't offer much to others and that limits how much I can offer myself since amusing yourself doesn't come with any social currency reward.

Is it socially currency that you're after? I'm confused why you're in this mess to begin with. If you had a lot to offer to yourself, you wouldn't need other people to remind yourself that you're unique.
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View PostBuglamp, on 06 April 2016 - 06:44 PM, said:

Anyway, thanks for the serious responses. I do have plans for therapy and possibly going to try some anti-depressants again. I was very anti-pharmaceutical last time I was in therapy, due to bad experiences when I was a teenager.

Good luck BL. I hope you tackle the problem through every single method that you can. Eat well. Get some exercise while you're at it, too. 30 minutes of exercise a day, several days a week, can do wonders to fight depression.

I ended up going through the same crisis when none of the video games I played were enjoyable anymore. I had to get off my ass and do something. I think it's a primal force that can't be overcome easily. You better make the most out of it..


#4569189 The "Funny Picture" thread

Posted Alcohoulix on 09 March 2016 - 09:01 AM

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#4572405 Why don't you have a Girlfriend Junkie?

Posted Breadstick on 31 March 2016 - 10:33 AM

View PostBreadstick, on 20 March 2016 - 06:46 PM, said:

tfw no gf

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i got her number lol

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