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#4309185 Life fuck ups

Posted Esiwdeer on Yesterday, 06:32 PM

pretty sure namechange has threatened to kill thaya and poppychulo with a knife and most forum regulars thought "well they shouldn't have been arguing with namechange"

#4309278 Life fuck ups

Posted Esiwdeer on Yesterday, 08:45 PM

was scoping out craigslist today looking for some interesting volunteer opportunities

discovered the "w4m missed connections" section of the website

felt honestly startled and surprised when not a single post there was about me

#4309260 Life fuck ups

Posted Thaya on Yesterday, 08:03 PM

I'm a nazi mod

#4309122 The "Funny Picture" thread

Posted glonglon on Yesterday, 04:56 PM

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#4307580 Life fuck ups

Posted Esiwdeer on 19 December 2014 - 05:15 PM

Something similar to this has happened to me one time before. In retrospect, perhaps making my alter ego's identity the same as my real identity wasn't the best decision. In any case, some 22 year old found my entire internet presence and took offense at the most innocent stuff, like simply having posted in the "Hottest Girls" thread.

As I said, she was 22 so I was already not having it, but the whole thing was like a coup for her to say she didn't trust me which was cause for her to investigate and then she found my private internet activity which was the evidence that justified her. Kangaroo court, imo. Basically we were just messing around(in my opinion) and she Googled the shit out of me and then got mad.


There are no second acts in American life, Emmune. In the first place, I don't care to investigate enough to have an opinion on the authenticity of this thread but your business is your business. You need to keep in mind precisely what a relationship means. It's one thing to make jokes about being whipped or whatever, but it's another to actually not stand up for yourself in a relationship.

I have found Twilight Fanfiction porn written by girls I was dating who went insane when I revealed my discovery. In the first place, most people in our age group are not internet literate which is sad to say; I wouldn't be able to 'tell' most of my partners anything about the internet, like my suitor would have wanted, because they just don't know anything about it.


I almost got peered out of a school I went to when I was really low ranking in the army. You probably can't tell this from knowing me here, but I have a really high opinion of myself. It was all training, and the whole thing was a 3 month long pretend war. I really wanted the corresponding badge from this school, so I was working really hard to pass it. On the technical aspects, at least. I was moving up pretty quickly, and some of that meant I got the extra responsibility of filling everyone's radio with a key, basically, but since it was like Vietnam it had to be done every 6 hours to outfox the pretend enemy.

Long story short, after 3 weeks of this it was fucking my rest schedule which the school already fucks. So instead of getting 2 hours for sleep that night, I'd get 30 mins because I had to spend 90 mins sneaking around our camp finding everyone's radio to do some work on it. This really started to bother me in some areas because, I don't know, it would be like the dude was sleeping on his ruck with his radio deep in the bottom so to get it I had to go around him and wake him up, he'd get pissed at me or something - you can imagine interactions like this 2 times a night every night for a few weeks.

We had a regear halfway through, and they had a 'sensing session' where everyone fills out an anonymous survey to answer a variety of questions on instructors, peers, the course, etc. Very scientific and anonymous. Anyway, I am sitting there, tired as a dog and thinking it's a waste of time and the obvious people are getting peered for failure to be physically fit, technically competent, etc. Then, for the "hardest person to work with" column I was almost universally listed by my peers, 23 of 27 people if I remember all men, ages 21-28.

I couldn't believe it. I had been thinking about the next phase which required a jump and one of my feet was already fucked, so I was afraid. I knew I hadn't made any mistakes. I knew that I had done everything perfectly. I hadn't thought about anything else.


How is this relevant? Why are you talking about the military? I knew you had Asperger's. Hold on, fellas. I like you, Emmune. I would like to share with you this piece of my life which I hope you can relate to. I would just like to say I wrote this in the spirit of communicating an idea you might find useful.

I used to think about this whole thing and it made me feel shameful. Despite achieving something which made me proud, during the first half of the school I was very unpopular which almost ruined the tab for me. This was shocking to me because I had never considered the potential I had for failure. I knew I wouldn't be the one to quit a run, to fall out of a swim, to give up on anything. It will be someone else first, I always knew. This was the first time I realized I may actually fail the school. I didn't, eventually, but this was the first time I'd ever been that person like, on the lists of below standard or whatever. I can't explain it much better. Loss of control, I guess.

I analyzed it a lot and thought, am I mentally ill? What's going on with this? How can I be failing at something, or risking failing out of something? How are other people better than me? I can't even see how they'd be doing better, which never happens to me. I can always see how to improve. I remember calling my girlfriend and telling her all about it and I'll be honest, I was depressed by it. The jump was stressing me out because of my foot, plus the fact that I might just fail anyway due to something that was apparently beyond my comprehension.

She said, "well fuck them, you're better. If you don't want to play their games it isn't your problem." and normally I never listen to ladies or ask them for advice but for some reason, in this instance the attitude of "fuck them" resonated with me. The more I thought about it I realized, that's who I am. She was just telling me what she thought I wanted to hear. The old me, anyway. The version of me who wanted to accomplish the school and dated a hot girl and didn't care about not eating or sleeping. That version of me does hate lazy, inconsiderate fucks.

I was the person I wanted to be. I cared only about the mission, accomplishing my duties and pulling more than my own weight. That is who I was, actually. It takes patience to realize the skill and benefit of being political, which I didn't gain until I was older. Still, I don't believe you should feel ashamed or change your behavior unless you want to do it.


This sounds cliche, but I think there's a lot of victory of knowing who you are. Knowing what sort of situations you find harmony in. I'm a fuck, basically. I hate that idiot, sleeping on his bag. I made some of the best friends I have in my entire life in that school, and the rest of the people can suck my dick. That's how I feel, I guess when I'm really tired and hungry I'm just more honest about it.

I think that's why maintaining your equilibrium as a man is such a valuable skill. Being the best version of yourself requires a different skill all the time. Look at the effects, as Benjamin Franklin said. Maybe I was sarcastic and an asshole, but when it wasn't my job anymore I went to sleep with my own radio outside my bag so it was easy to find. More than 60% of the people who voted against me failed and the rest didn't vote against me the second time.  

Why is your girlfriend analyzing you in such a critical way? Honesty is useful, lack of acceptance isn't. I feel like I'm in a unique place to judge the difference but, for women that I date who knew/knew of me online first vs. women I date only through real life who I don't even really have time to explain it to, it's just a matter of intimacy.


For example, I thought the Twilight Fanfiction thing was hot as hell. The girl was like, a drop dead gorgeous doctor almost and she just never considered how easy it'd be to copy and paste her e-mail into Google. I'm not even that competent at computers, but compared to her I am. I never considered she'd be so ashamed or I would have at least fucked her again first, but it was just my own ignorance. It's like reading someone's journal or something, your girlfriend is a dick and took a lot of liberties doing any digging about you without good cause.

What kind of rights do you have in this relationship? This is some NSA shit if she can just be researching you and finding things she doesn't like all the fucking time. Tell her that basically this sort of shit is exactly the ISIS of relationship maneuvers. If you have a problem you go about it politically. You don't get pissed because your special forces found stuff they shouldn't have been looking for to begin with and threaten to break off all political relations.

Imagine a guy doing that, you'd be a controlling asshole. I put a virus on your phone and I KNOW you didn't just stop at the grocery on your way home. You are dead, you bitch. You know?



Sometimes people don't grow up into the person they thought they would. In fact, it's probably the rule. If you want to be the exception I think it starts with being honest with yourself. About everything.

It's easy to say we're all basement nerds in real life and alphas when we're anonymous, but I'm not that way. The truth is, I've been an alpha for my entire life. I can remember thinking people were beneath me before I had ever even been to a school, and school only strengthened my resolve.

If your girlfriend doesn't want to resonate with you and accept everything about you, I'd start immediately planning a sexual exit strategy to make sure you don't have any regrets. Honestly, that's what I'd do. Being a man means being independent enough to not have to deal with shit which prevents you from expressing yourself.

Be yourself or die trying, basically. I think that's the only respectable way to lead your life.

#4307166 Life fuck ups

Posted Thaya on 19 December 2014 - 12:24 PM

View PostZzx, on 19 December 2014 - 12:22 PM, said:

mods can see aj ips? thats worrying
yes, we got a black market going where we sell them to kaska per request

#4306485 Life fuck ups

Posted Breadstick on 19 December 2014 - 02:49 AM

still can't tell if this is real tbh

#4306383 Life fuck ups

Posted stcolbert on 19 December 2014 - 12:47 AM

And you're a fucking useless piece of shit

#4306395 Life fuck ups

Posted Breadstick on 19 December 2014 - 01:03 AM

if this is serious, i hope things work out for you. i think most of us know your "alpha" posts were all done in jest, as you've been a genuinely helpful person on here and had some actual discussions about important things

i generally try to act on the internet the same as i would irl, but i can't say there's never been a time where i've done something jokingly on here that wouldn't go over as well with friends or family irl

gl fam

#4306302 Life fuck ups

Posted stcolbert on 18 December 2014 - 11:43 PM

So as I'm sure many of you are aware, my online persona for this site doesn't accurately reflect who I am in reality.  
I take the alpha male character and push it to its extremes. Usually in a display of disgusting chauvinistic behavior.  I would never, in a million years, act like this in reality.  I despise men who treat women like this, and would stand up for someone who was being treated this way in front of me.

But for some reason, due to the anonymous nature of online forums, my morals and convictions took to the sidelines.  I'm sure many of you have done the same, post things you don't really mean or believe.  I'm still uncertain why I felt the need to take on this role/persona.

Unfortunately I failed to recognize how inappropriate this behavior was and how negatively it could affect those that mean the most to me in my life.

My current girlfriend who I am deeply in love with and 100% faithful to, happen to stumble across some of my posts and was absolute appalled.  Some of my posts were really fucking nasty, disgusting, and it took her reading them back to me, reduced to tears, to realize how much of a piece of shit I was for even posting them.  I would never want anyone I feel so much love for to ever feel that pain.  It made her question my morals, our trust, and whether or not I am faithful to her.  When someone you love this much brings these things to question, it's like stabbing a knife into your heart.

Now I'm stuck trying to explain to her that this was all a front, a construct.  That I'm not actually like this.  I have to listen to her saying that she doesn't believe, doesn't trust me, how I could say these things.  It hurts, a lot.

I am faithful.  I'm not a player.  I've always been a boyfriend kind of guy.  I have no wants for anyone else.  I never waited to bang multitudes of women (or any women other than her), and treat them like objects. I'm not racist.  I'm not homophobic.  I'm not a guy that runs around flashing money in people's faces.  I know some people are like that, but I'm not.  She also brought up how I would feel if my future children would read what I wrote.  Answer:  Like a fucking pig piece of shit, unfit to bring my offspring into this world.

I hope none of you end up causing the kind of pain I have, and hope that if you are posting similarly to me that you consider your posts, and those who it may affect, either presently or in the future.

I'll be taking a break from this forum permanently.

Hope you guys all the best and happy holidays.  Sorry for the years of negativity.

#4305201 do you even cook?

Posted Ayrasaurus on 18 December 2014 - 08:55 AM

"post steakhouse i feel like i just had sex, not even kidding, it's the exact same feeling."

I think you need to upgrade your gf m8

#4302963 The "Funny Picture" thread

Posted Reliuna on 17 December 2014 - 12:22 AM

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#4298303 [IRL] Official OT IRL Picture's

Posted ysnakewoo on 14 December 2014 - 08:25 AM

View PostFTRouslan, on 13 December 2014 - 06:30 PM, said:

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cheap bastards don't even send envelopes anymore

Gratz bro - enjoy your uni days.

#4297869 [IRL] Official OT IRL Picture's

Posted stcolbert on 14 December 2014 - 12:27 AM

Gotcha.  I didn't realize Harvard was known for bio or any of the sciences really.  Sounds like you thought this out thoroughly though.  Good luck young chap.  Network and make those connections.

Bang lots of bitches too

#4296930 do you even cook?

Posted Thaya on 13 December 2014 - 09:15 AM


why is brad pitt considered to be so desirable?

because he doesn't say shit.
why dont u follow this advice then