i think i never had a genuine friendship with a girl. it always feels so superficial. until i finished school (after that it get's kind of hard to naturally meet girls if you study computer science lol) plenty of girls liked me but it never really worked out. you just can not have a conversation with them the same way you can with a good guy friend. i wish i was gay that would make things easier i think. girls like other stuff. yes there are ones that are into the stuff im into but that is pretty rare already. and even if they are into the same things that doesn't mean the personality fits. idk i just never had the feeling that i could be the real me that i am with my close friends. and tbh it's not worth it to maintain a relationship just to fuck or just for the sake of having a gf. sex isn't even that much better than using your hand. i think the problem is that when you sit at your pc all day you have very different hobbies and interests than normal ppl and even live in a somewhat different culture i feel like. they won't understand my references, they won't understand where i'm comin from.
i mean for example you watch a movie with her and she wants do see a really shitty movie like lets say an adam sandler movie, how am i ever gonna be able to have a real conversation with such a person ever againe? i mean i wanna tell that person why i think this is a bad movie, but i feel like it would amount to nothing because there will be 1000 other things that person thinks drastically different about and i have to explain myself.
i like that ajot is small because you know the other posters personality somewhat from their previous posts. on bigger forums you just read an alias and it means nothing to you, some random in a crowd. here you know and love the guys behind. plus theres some pretty weird ppl here that make it interesting. also you can talk about whatever the fuck you want and say whatever the fuck. quality shitposting goin on here.