I already wrote this once and then my computer crashed. So let's do a short version;
I was chatting with this girl who's a "social media celebrity" a while ago while having no idea of all of that at the time.
Didnt hear from her for like 6 days so I figured she moved on and I did aswell too I guess.
So reminiscing of it today at work I was about to post the chat to my friends and joke about on where I went wrong //
Then at this exact moment I get a text from a number I don't know telling me hey this is V I'm at the airport and missed my flight - want to hang out?
So I told her that if she wanted to pass by the beach we could chill there for 2 hours and after that go to my place. Both things we did.
At my place we started smoking and listened so some really dope stuff. Her being this "puplic figure" she's just traveling constantly the world and we had a lot of stuff to share about experiences here, in europe, elsewhere.
Normally I go instantly for the kills on these scenario's like the good fuccboi I am, but It didn't feel right with her - I felt like I would've insulted her intelligence with my usual ways so I backed off and was just genuily curious about her adventurous life and the A - list celebrities she went hang out and went partying with.
She's the nicest and best mannered person you could think of when it comes to get something to eat or calling for a taxi. She has a way of making these banal things stand out. I felt genuily inspired by the things she said and actually bought it when she showed me videos of her being involved with all these social and humanitarian projects she's being the face off and leading light to with the voice her community gave her.
She actually made a Snap of her being denied acces to the airplane which then later got so many times retweeted that she got the next flight for free by the Airline..
Anyways so were pretty much just smoking and talking for hours with no sex and I still felt closer to her than to any girl I've been with this year.
While she was here her flight got delayed twice so that instead of 3am it did went off at around 5:30 local time. At the end we went on the roof of my house with an bedsheed and 2 pillows and just laid there and cuddled - again no sex.
She even apologized to me for no sex, which didn't sound like a weird thing to say at the time..
Before sending off the taxi to the airport she saw why the flight got delayed.
Latest reports say that it was a false alarm, but at the time this was the latest news. So If she would've goten the flight she was supposed to take then she atleast would've been involved in this hysteria with thousands of people.
All of this feels really weird and unreal, not used to bond this extremly to someone so quick, not used to actually letting my wall's down so easily and letting myself vunerable. Then again she took a nap on my lap in which I could've taken advantage of her especially considering her high profile. So I guess she must've felt atleast comfortable enough to that.
However now she's left for NYC and will be coming back only at the start of october. And I'm kinda reminded what it feels like to be love struck. At the end I felt comfortable enough to just tell her how bad I wanted to get involved with her and she brushed me off with a slow stare while biting her lip which turned into that smile all these poor souls must've lost themselves just as I did today.
Before driving off with the cab she kissed me though. Now I'm not sure if this No was a 'Not today' or a 'Not ever' and I don't even care that much I must admit, I just want to feel the same way I felt today once she'll be back on the island in october.
Not drowning in selfpitty here my life is awesome but I'm just a pawn compared to all her multimillionaire Ex-boyfriends all over the world working for SpaceX and those silicon Valley CEO's cheating on their wives with her.
and that is okay. I'm responsible for my life and the road I went. And I'm being thankful everyday for how blessed I am that my average slow workday is rolling spliffs and catching waves.
Maybe I've to settle as being the toy-boy. that's really ok if it allows me to be just as close to her.
what these kind of women do to you man.... if this is how all these girls on the highest level operate then I can't really blame anyone to lose yourself on them..
Did hang out once for 15hours with her and am already willing to give her everything I own.