i relate a lot to the ordering everything online so you could avoid talking to people/cashiers etc thing
when i was a hopeless neet i'd do shit like that a lot. i'd avoid certain restaurants so i wouldn't have to explain my order or get it specialized in any way. anywhere like subway where i'd want to build my sub i just skipped because i didn't want that interaction. it's like when you avoid face to face human interaction for that long you become socially fearful or something
now i work in IT which you'd expect to be nerdland (and it can be) but you have to talk to people a lot. i have to work alongside people, i have to communicate well with end users, customers, clients etc. i used to be afraid of making a fucking phone call, had to get over that real fast.
just getting yourself out in the world and experiencing things will make you open up so much socially and just have a healthier mentality and personality
i really haven't felt this kind of personal independence before that i've felt in the last year. it's that small growing feeling that i'm really starting to make it, when i really REALLY doubted i ever was going to "make it" a few years ago. i had fucking nothing going for me 3-4 years ago, now i have a job i love in a field i love where i'm treated well and have already advanced my position, have my own income, my own vehicle, my own bills to pay... i'm not afraid to go out and do my own thing anymore, i'm not afraid to communicate with the world in person anymore
i used to be really scared of asking people questions. i didn't want to bother them. it wasn't long before i realized i wasn't going to make it doing that and i started asking any question i had. it carried over from work into all aspects of my life and it's been so beneficial. and unless you just have no situational awareness, people don't mind being asked questions at all for the most part. most people like the feeling of their expertise in something being needed
we're all always going to battle our own demons but i've come a great distance just from putting myself out there and trying something on a whim
great story that resonates with me a lot. I was fearful of taking risks, small and large, once upon a time because I was afraid of conflict. But then I realized that there's no happiness without risk, since you can't create something great without a chance of failure or rejection. maybe it means that life will always be full of suffering. maybe it means that life is far more dynamic and fun than meets the eye.